Just something that came across my mind last night before I fell asleep, a routine I would usually do every night before bedtime, to reflect upon the day/life and be appreciative about the smallest things in life. I think it's healthy to do this cause it helps you not to be a greedy or pessimistic person, guides you to think positively and take things in your stride.
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Just like any other day, I would go over to the boyf's, wake him up then we head out together. Even though he may not wake up on time, he's such a sleepyhead, unable to wake up before noon and waking him up can be quite a chore, the "tug-of-war" we struggle with involves laughter, giggles, rolling around in bed and cuddles. And somehow, I feel blessed because in his arms, nothing else matters. In afternoons where we decide to whip up lunch at home to save money, it's always the same few limited dishes to choose from because we can't cook. But we always end up with a full stomach and burping in each other's faces, competing to see who burps the loudest. When we head out, for work to meet up with clients or leisure, the places we go either sells female clothes or hotwheels. Then again, I would complain and whine about going in, up, down and out every now and then. And think that maybe one day, he might get married with all that hotwheels instead of me. It's tricky though, how he can bring me to different places to try out different kinds of food yet at the same time able to hunt for his cars. A simple walk-in to Turf City, holding hands and randomly talking about luo han guo and pandan leaves, indian cuisine for dinner that didn't disappoint despite a long waiting time, ending the day with a goodbye kiss as usual. A day of traveling about is tiring but when two are in it together, it just feels different.
453 days into our relationship, still no big arguments yet. Of course there are times I would be pissed at him for certain things but to really quarrel and flare up, nope. I wonder if we are weird or abnormal, but then it's hard for us to get angry at each other. Even if I am, a goofy face from him melts my heart already. Even if he is, an exaggerated pretense of sadness and guiltiness on my face would turn his frown into a smile. I couldn't be more sure of how I want all these to last and to spend my life with such a person who has watched me grow and learn, aspiring me to be the best I can ever be. Opportunities to try out different kinds of design work, believing in me when even I doubt my ability. When I wake up in fright in the middle of the night crying because of nightmares, he gives assurance I need. On nights when he's around at my place, he tucks me to bed and leaves only when I'm asleep. And it's the best and most comfortable night's sleep I can get. Our future may need a lot more planning but it will come true as long as we move forward together. He's more than what I asked for and definitely a keeper.
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