A conversation with the sister last night was comforting - something I missed very badly due to our busy lives. Things felt different recently, I'm beginning to see things more plainly and reading into tiniest things, which is not a good sign cause I'm feeling more emotional as a result. It's saddening how a person gets taken for granted once you open up yourself entirely to the person to love. How laziness will kick in and knock on your loved one's door and things become stale. Not that this isn't normal, I mean it's common to see how relationships have different stages as time passes. And we're supposedly way past the honeymoon period - which I accept. But when only a party tries to make time and still care for the other party, things gets tiring.
Sometimes I wished I am less emotional. That I don't cry that easily. I wish I have more courage to speak my mind when I need to, rather than playing guessing games cause 80% of the time guessing games don't work.
It boils down to settling down for a proper conversation.
Later.