Wondering.

I was wondering will I be able to go for a short getaway trip, cause all these mess are just simply too overwhelming.

I need a getaway, badly.

I thought things were over, but that's just part of my wishful thinking.
I was too naive to think that the trust will alway remain there, for mine did.
They said that trust is the easiest thing in the world to lose, and the hardest thing in the world to get back.
Still, it hurts to doubt something that was unquestionable, falling out with the last person you'd expect to do so.
It hurts even more when you still wish things remained unchanged, wishing you could get on a time machine and return back to the past, yet it seems that you're the only one who wants the memories back badly.
It's true that I'm not perfect, I have my flaws, my weaknesses, I make mistakes. But when I apologize, I truly mean it cause I do self reflect and want to improve things.
I thought we made up, went back to normal, but I was still surprised with the awkward moment I thought would never exist anymore. I guess I was wrong again.
Adding on to more problems, my body just wants to screw up at this moment too.
Never had I have such problems with my body, not even when I was darn stressed up in school, but I ended up having my period twice this month. What sorcery is this?! All up against me?
Sometimes, we just end up walking a dark road, a path filled with horrors and unforgiving weathers.

But that doesn't mean we don't need assurance and care right?
Life shouldn't suck this much, not when we're still so young.
We should be leading young, wild and free lives.
Ugh, disgusted with the life I'm leading. I need a getaway, I'll come back a stronger person.