Not sure if everyone feels the same way when their loved one has to travel and be away for a period of time, and all you feel is emptiness.
It's only been three days since he's gone, and I'm barely living - living in the sense that I'm enjoying the things I do daily and feeling energized about it. I wouldn't say that I can't live without him, unless of course, if he's gone like forever, like dead. (Choi, touchwood) It's like everything I do, something has to remind me of him, even when I try not to think of him so often. The connections to old memories automatically comes to my mind, then there's the comparison between now and then, and the feeling of emptiness engulfs me again. I am a crybaby, I cry for the littlest things, cry as I sent him off, despite knowing that he'll be back, it's just a matter of time. Even he has tears welled up in his eyes.
Perhaps some people think I'm just being wimpy and over-reliant but there's no denying that these feelings are real. When two is in love, they rely on their partner to feel happy (to a certain extent of course). When you're the only one doing things that you used to do together, something just doesn't feel right. It feels as if there's a hole there, you can only mend it up when your partner's around, because he's the one who makes you complete, who you are.