All of the stars

Scrolling through Thought Catalog as usual and learnt -

Why You Should Cry Today 

The proverb “What soap is for the body, tears are for the soul.” is one that I live by. Crying helps to clean your soul, and release any pent up emotion that can otherwise be really unhealthy when kept harbored. Nowadays, too many folks are afraid to cry or show emotion. They think it makes them look weak or defeated, when in actuality, it’s a sign of strength. A sign of realization. A sign of being human.

I’ve suffered a great deal of personal loss in my life, with losing my mother as a kid and losing someone who I thought I was going to marry. If it’s one thing I’ve learned from both of those occurrences, as well as every other stressful moment in between, it’s that crying is a way for your body to say “Guess what? You’re still alive. You made it. Good job, pal.” Every time I cried, I immediately felt better when it was all said and done. When my cheeks were stained with black streaks from my mascara and my tissue box was completely empty. That’s when I felt better. I felt whole again. I felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. It’s fucking awesome.

Have you ever had a moment in your life, when something as small as a cup falling over occurs, and you Lose. Your. Shit. Or Sally from HR accidentally puts the wrong date on a document and you silently plot her demise? It’s not the cup that pissed you off, nor is it Sally. It’s those feelings that you might try and keep caged up, not wanting to acknowledge what is going on in your life at the moment, but instead trying to act totally numb.

Quite personally, I think you should cry today. Not because I want you to be sad, but because I want you to release all of those emotions you have been building up. Whether unintentionally and whether good or bad, give yourself a good 5 minute crying session. Of course crying won’t pay the bills you have stacking up on your kitchen counter, or make your ex suddenly love you again, but it will help your mental health. And in the end, that’s your most important asset of em’ all.

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Made me realize I was right all along, for letting the tears fall when they should, for containing it back will make me feel even worse. And it's true that you immediately feel better after bawling your eyes out. Some may just feel that it's just a 2 week separation for holiday, why the big issue? Well it is a huge issue for us, for it's the longest period we've been apart ever since we were as one. 
But now, I've seen the light and instead of crying why isn't he back yet, I'm looking forward to the day he's back so I can fetch him from the airport. 

The realization hit me, in a couple of waves: 
First, a friend's sad blog post on her soon-to-be long distance relationship because of her studies. Which is something very much more serious compared to my lonely two weeks. I can't imagine myself being in a LDR, I could possibly die. Really. 
Then there's this Thought Catalog article and the title of today's post - Ed Sheeran's All Of The Stars, one of the movie track song from The Fault In Our Stars (which I've yet to catch but I'm already addicted to the song.)

You're on the other side

As the skyline splits in two

I'm miles away from seeing you

I can see the stars

From America

I wonder, do you see them, too?

So open your eyes and see

The way our horizons meet

And all of the lights will lead

Into the night with me

And I know these scars will bleed

But both of our hearts believe

All of these stars will guide us home

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How not to fall in love with you when you never fail to put a smile on my face, even when you're more than a hundred miles away. Now all I can think of is how to get to the airport by 5am in the morning so I will be the first one to welcome you home :)